Post by Bartender on Sept 20, 2012 5:33:26 GMT -5
*(@) Kaia slips out of her den under the kitchen yurt. The wolf was a tawny sandy brown with darker mottling of greys and browns to give her a camoflaged appearance. The edges of her tail, ears and paws seem to smooth to greys before darking to a rich brown. Her eyes are a silvery inquisitive grey. Kaia's body is lean with long legs clearly built for running. Even after carrying a litter her form...
[03:22] *(@) Kaia ... is still athletic. Spotting Ethan her tail wags in greeting before shifting up to homid.
[03:22] * Ethan` wags back and shifts upw ith her
[03:23] «( Ethan` )» "long time no see Kaia-Rhay, how are the kids?"
[03:24] *(@) Kaia is 5'4 with a lean slender frame in homid. Her skin is kissed a deep tan by the sun with hair that is a mix of blonde, greys, and browns that have been braided and formed into dread locks. What seems like a hundred tiny silver bells have been woven into her long hair accentuating her flowing movements with their soft sound. Her attire consists of a simple baby blue top the material...
[03:25] *(@) Kaia ... looped around her neck, crossing above her chest to travel over each breast before binding in the back. A grey and tan skirt complete her attire, feet bare as her toes relish the feel of the grass.
[03:25] «(@ Kaia )» Growing fast...and very curious. How have you been Ethan?
[03:26] «( Ethan` )» "win some you lose some. I'm learnign faster and faster. Had ym first run in wth a Silver Fang yesterday. she punched me in the gut"
[03:27] «(@ Kaia )» Sure that was a Silver Fang? ~*She looks to him curiously since the description led her to believe it was someone from her tribe*~
[03:27] «( Ethan` )» "she said she was a Silver Fang, and from the looks of her, I beleiv eit. A sort of...terrible, austere beauty, and an overpowerign sense of entitlement"
[03:29] «(@ Kaia )» Ahh...the ego before the fall. ~*She laughs softly and moves to take a seat, bells chiming softly as her body sways*~
[03:30] «( Ethan` )» "I...gave the Alpah chimiange for my earlie rinsult....a weapon I forged myself"
[03:31] * Ethan` smiles
[03:31] «( Ethan` )» "have you met charlie yet?"
[03:32] «(@ Kaia )» ...If you are referring to the other scent you carry with you almost all the time now....no not personally.
[03:32] * Ethan` chuckles
[03:33] «( Ethan` )» "he's another cub...scared shitless, but....smart as hell, he's....he's become my brother"
[03:35] «(@ Kaia )» I can tell...
[03:35] *(@) Kaia offers him a smile
[03:35] «(@ Kaia )» Thats good though Ethan. We all need a family
[03:36] «( Ethan` )» "He...he's so unsure himself...of his abilities, so i've been teaching him, using the parables that Seriosuly taught me"
[03:37] «( Ethan` )» "ehich is what we do as Galliards, isn;t it? teach, inspire....remember"
[03:46] *(@) Kaia nods, "It is. We're the ones that stir the warriors to battle, inspire them to fight for Gaia, sing songs to comfort loved ones, offer joyous songs of welcome to those newly born...it is a many faceted job that we do. "
[03:48] «( Ethan` )» "i'm enjoyign it. I've decided to....dedicate myself to recording part of our peoples hsitory
[03:48] «( Ethan` )» "a lifetimes work"
[03:51] «(@ Kaia )» A current historical document? Or looking into a specific part.
[03:54] «( Ethan` )» "My own grandfather fought in the Second World War, and I've learned that so many of our people did too, I want to preserve that, so future generations knwo of their sacrifice for not onyl the Nation, but for the humans and gaia"
[03:54] «( Ethan` )» "but i've been advised to avoid talking too much about it"
[03:56] *(@) Kaia expression stiffens for just a moment...an obvious sign of discomfort from one wolf to another...though a human might miss it entirely. "...there are reasons for that Ethan. But...I have spoken to a few of the ones that might be reluctant to speak of it, the Alpha included. Word sort of spread ahead of you...however I have been given permission by a few to speak for them to you if you so...
[03:56] «(@ Kaia )» "
[03:56] *(@) Kaia ... wish.
[03:58] «( Ethan` )» "I know..."
[03:59] «(@ Kaia )» ...just respect that I will answer -any- question asked truthfully. Its the nature of what I do within our auspice.
[03:59] «( Ethan` )» "tell me about the Alpha, she....radiates incredible strength, but...she's so guarded"
[04:01] «(@ Kaia )» Ahhhh. Yes. That one. The Iron Judge is rather well known in the Black Forest Sept. Would you believe me if I told you that she had a rockier cubhood then you?
[04:02] * Ethan` laughs out loud
[04:02] «( Ethan` )» "Is that truly possible?"
[04:02] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan Nailo, Steel Judge (typoed the last few times), did not actually make her Rite of Passage until she was almost 19. She refused to go through it the first time likening the whole system to be an archaic instituition brought on by generations of backward thinking.
[04:03] * Ethan` laughs
[04:03] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan was...an interesting case. You've heard of delayed Changes?
[04:04] * Ethan` nods
[04:04] «( Ethan` )» "Seriously said I was a delayed change"
[04:05] «(@ Kaia )» Most occur around puberty, when the body is already going through a state of flux. Contrary to popular belief most changes are not at all violent or traumatic. Those in Septs can be downright mild due to the understanding nature of those around them and numerous elders to temper the initial Rage.
[04:06] «( Ethan` )» "not like mine and charlie's?"
[04:06] «(@ Kaia )» Sometimes this can be triggered earlier by high stress situations. Some are delayed until late teens. A rare few of the delayed ones however also show no signs of ever being a shifter.
[04:06] *(@) Kaia nods, "Yes. It can occur in a non violent fashion."
[04:06] «(@ Kaia )» ...I fell off a cliff.
[04:10] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan on the other hand...to what everyone knew and thought was to never shift. She was the middle child with an older brother claiming a place among the Garou as an Ahroun and a younger Silver Tongue brother. Most families would consider themselves blessed. You have seen the scars on the Alpha's back and legs? ....those were done by the Hammer, her father. Her brother's first change was brought on by beating the...
[04:10] «(@ Kaia )» ... crap out of their father with his own hammer and defense of Deunan. Yes....even at ten she was still the indomitable wall she is now. She'd set an opinion and never waiver.
[04:21] «( Ethan` )» "sounds About right"
*(@) Kaia leans forward her thick german accent soft though her tone and pacing is rhythmic almost mesmerizing. She nods, "The Alpha looks nothing like her father...not a one of them did. Something no one ever questioned since their purebreeding followed Helga's line...and not the Hammer's. If you ever saw a picture...you would be startled by the resemblence. Helga's line are heroic, Ethan. One of...
[04:27] *(@) Kaia ... the hallmarks of the bloodline was aiding in eliminating our little embarrassment during World War 2."
[04:29] «( Ethan` )» "I see"
[04:31] «(@ Kaia )» The Fenrir Elders had an idea Ethan. They weren't the only ones. That instead of just executing every last one, since many were of old honorable lines....it would be best to just breed them out. Using the pure lines to filter out the poor. So I'm sure you can guess what the Hammer's side of the family was busy doing..."
[04:31] *(@) Kaia looks at him levely observing his expression as she speaks
[04:32] «( Ethan` )» "rounding up my grandmother's people and thier like and putting them in camps"
[04:32] *(@) Kaia blanches, "Close. Up the intensity."
[04:33] «( Ethan` )» "Gramps.......told me about the camps Kaia.....I have an idea about the horrors perpetrated there"
[04:35] «(@ Kaia )» It is one thing to be the men herding the sheep. But what of the ones that create the little shops of horror in the first place....that didn't just use the camps for their 'projects'. Everyone sees the leaders...the officers....the soldiers forced to do the bidding. The soldiers....the officers many could be excused...eventually. Though by the end the ones that had been forced into to save their families had long...
[04:35] «(@ Kaia )» ... since perished once they saw their loved ones brought in.
[04:35] *(@) Kaia voice grows softer as she speaks, for once seeming to carefully choose her words and phrasings.
[04:36] «( Ethan` )» "and the ones who remained were the ones who....took...pride in their perverse work, took pleasure in it"
[04:37] «(@ Kaia )» Yes. The ones that had waited for the chance to do what they enjoyed most...and in the name of one that would never condone it. If you are unlucky might run into him, his location has been unknown for some time. There is a serious concern that uncontrollable Rage runs in the family and that this tendency for uncontrollable violence has shown in Deunan...has been documented.
[04:38] «( Ethan` )» 'Hence why she's so guarded. She's fighting that tendency within herself"
[04:39] «(@ Kaia )» ...I personally do not believe it is founded. There are a few things I know about her that lead me to believe something else entirely.
[04:40] «( Ethan` )» "I haven't interacted with her much, but...but the loyalty she inspires in her subordinastes leads me to beleive she's.....that she represents the noble spirit of the tribe"
[04:41] «(@ Kaia )» I've seen her reign in her rage, justfied rage at that, to the extent where she has had seizures. Ever wonder why she is in America and not Germany?
[04:42] «( Ethan` )» "she had to get away from where the reminders of her families sins were omnipresent"
[04:44] «(@ Kaia )» Actually up until the incident with Nicholas, life there was pleasant. Once Devon had chased away the Hammer things were quiet. Her change was brought on by an apparently abusive boyfriend, who they never found, but even after that things were fairly normal for a Sept.
[04:49] «( Ethan` )» "so what brought her here?"
] «(@ Kaia )» ...inspite of being a burr in the ass to the elders while a cub she transitioned well enough for an older Garou. It did however open her to the possibility of having a relationship with a childhood friend. A few weeks before the wedding Rheanna, a mutal friend of theirs, tried to push Nicholas to choose her instead. Rumor, mind all I have are the spirits words for this part, is that the full moon and already...
[04:50] «(@ Kaia )» ... heightened air of energy did little to soften the rejection he gave her. Whether he provoked her or not is unknown but since Nicholas was soft hearted it is unlikely. ...she killed him. Deunan came home to find her over his body. We know she told Deunan that she had waited so she could tell Deunan what had happened. ....I'm the one that found Deunan and the remains outside her home. There was very little left...she had destroyed her hands punching the bones over and over again....which is why she carries the scars on her knuckles a...
[04:50] «(@ Kaia )» ... destroyed her hands punching the bones over and over again....which is why she carries the scars on her knuckles a
[04:51] «(@ Kaia )» and fingers. We know it was Rheanna only because of Deunans statement and the spirits....DNA testing wasn't all that popular just yet. Though she was justified in what she did it was determined it best that she leave and join her brothers in New Orleans.
[04:51] «( Ethan` )» "Deunan-rhya killed her friend?"
[04:53] «(@ Kaia )» ...yes. ~*Kaia swallows thickly and looks down the soft hearted wolf born finding the recollection more emotional then she remembered. Her grey eyes well up with tears but she licks her lips and continues speaking.*~ ...I never thought a wolf...even in Crinos...could make a sound that heart wrenching.
[04:53] * Ethan` shudders
[04:53] «(@ Kaia )» Those three were inseperable growing up. They used to play with me when I was little.
[04:54] «( Ethan` )» "I can;'t imagien the pain"
[04:54] «(@ Kaia )» ....No...I couldn't imagine what it would be like to lose every mate that I had had.... I am very glad that she has Terrance. ~*She nods, almost to herself the bells in her hair chiming sadly*~
[04:56] «( Ethan` )» "I thought I knew about loss...."
[04:56] * Ethan` smiles
[04:56] «( Ethan` )» "She's not the onyl one his presence has been good for"
[04:57] «( Ethan` )» "i'd...i'd be dancign the spiral now if not for him"
[04:57] * Ethan` shudders
[04:57] *(@) Kaia smiles back to him. "You should talk to to her sometime...after she's had her baby. I used to be intimidated by her a long time ago but she's a damned good one to have in your corner when it counts. ...I am glad that you are here Ethan. Though I do not think you'd have gone that path. There is something too noble in your heart."
[04:58] * Ethan` blushes
[04:58] «(@ Kaia )» (far too*)
[04:59] «(@ Kaia )» Its true Ethan. At the worst you would have been one of the nameless fallen in the name of Gaia...but never a Dancer.
[04:59] «( Ethan` )» "Seriously says I have too much of my grandfather in me"
[04:59] «(@ Kaia )» Yes, I can see that.
[05:00] «( Ethan` )» "I wish I had KNOWN he was Garou before he died, I wish he had TOLD me what to expect"
«(@ Kaia )» Don't hate him for it Ethan. Im sure he regrets it enough. Though if he thought you needed the preparation Im sure he would have told you. Look at it as a way of knowing just how much he knew you would adapt and learn, how truly strong you are.
[05:01] * Ethan` nods
[05:02] «( Ethan` )» "I don;t hate him, I coudl never hate him. His stories, his memories are what set me on this path"
[05:04] «(@ Kaia )» Your words, tone, body language, can all show different messages Ethan. Frustration or anger can be taken many ways.
[05:04] «( Ethan` )» "Is my anger and frustration showing?"
[05:04] * Quits: Charlie` (Chance@3424290b.stny.res.14056255.com.hmsk) (Ping timeout: 265 seconds)
[05:06] *(@) Kaia nods slowly, "For one accustomed to reading the body and not the spoken word, yes."
[05:08] «( Ethan` )» "i'm still seetihn over Neo's judgement against the Fang who punched me. she got off scott free"
[05:09] «(@ Kaia )» For now maybe.
[05:10] «( Ethan` )» "yeah, for now. She has to apologize after I make my rite, but no one knows when that'll be"
[05:11] * Ethan` sighs
[05:11] «( Ethan` )» "if I had punched someone, i'd be branded with silver or some shit"
[05:12] «(@ Kaia )» I doubt it would go that far. I've noticed a fondness for area beautification projects.
[05:13] «( Ethan` )» "I've picked up more bear shit...."
[05:13] * Ethan` rolls his eyes
[05:13] *(@) Kaia grins, "Better then branding."
[05:13] * Ethan` sighs
[05:13] «( Ethan` )» "can I speak candidly? without judgement?"
[05:14] «(@ Kaia )» Go right ahead Ethan. This is a discussion between us.
[05:14] «( Ethan` )» "I don;t feel like people have REALLY appreciated how much i've tried to do and learn"
[05:15] «(@ Kaia )» Ethan. I'm going to give you an example...and I want you to listen okay?
[05:15] * Ethan` nods and lsitens
[05:17] «(@ Kaia )» We have seen you try very hard. We have also seen you get angry and violent at the slightest insult or pull a juvenile prank most times resulting in you sulking off into the woods like an emo-teenager.
[05:17] *(@) Kaia holds up a finger, "Before you get angry be quiet and just remember what you feel right this second. I will give you five seconds...and then I am going to say something else."
[05:18] *(@) Kaia looks to him for when he's ready
[05:18] * Ethan` takes a deep breath and nods
«(@ Kaia )» I have seen you diligently guard my den above and beyond what you were told. When you have a mind to you do very well. But when things do not go according to what you wish you have trouble adjusting which can lead to some issues and displays that look less then favorably on you. You have shown remarkable improvement since your arrival Ethan and inspite of trials and errors have put one foot in front of the other...
[05:21] «(@ Kaia )» ... diligently, even when its yourself standing in your way. I admire your strength.
[05:21] *(@) Kaia peers to him and asks softly, "...essentially the same message. ....but which were you more receptive to?" She watches him curiously
[05:22] «( Ethan` )» "the latter"
[05:22] «(@ Kaia )» ...why?
[05:22] «( Ethan` )» "the tone and the wording...the presentation"
[05:23] * Ethan` chuckles
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» You were also left with a postive impression weren't you?
[05:23] * Ethan` nods
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» Now consider a moment, from an outsiders perspective, the impressions you are -leaving- behind you.
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» What have been your final statements.
[05:24] * Ethan` sighs
[05:24] «( Ethan` )» "less then flattering"
[05:24] *(@) Kaia smiles, "We're really good at getting in our own way."
[05:24] * Ethan` chuckles
[05:25] «(@ Kaia )» Its even worse when we're wanting something really badly.
[05:25] «( Ethan` )» "is it the wolf inus, or the man?"
[05:25] *(@) Kaia huffs indignantly. "The man. Filthy human." She sticks her tongue out at him and grins
[05:26] «( Ethan` )» "but I know the secret....of why Gaia made us part man and part wolf"
[05:26] «(@ Kaia )» Oh?
[05:27] *(@) Kaia watches him, curiosity dancing in her silvery grey eyes
[05:27] «( Ethan` )» "think about it. Humans can exist alone, but were better when organized in clans, tribes, platoons or armies"
[05:27] «( Ethan` )» "Wolves can exist alone, but onyl in a pack do they truyl become apex predators"
[05:27] «(@ Kaia )» They can exist alone, they tell themselves that, but seperate one from the herd for too long and they go mad. Much is the same with wolves...but more extreme. The lone wolf is a dead wolf.
[05:28] * Ethan` nods
[05:28] «(@ Kaia )» We are Gaia's warriors....she gave us a blessing and a curse. Even when we walk alone...our dual nature prevents us from ever truly being solitary.
[05:28] «( Ethan` )» "Sometimes I envy your tribe and Silver Fangs"
[05:29] *(@) Kaia gives him a surprised blink
[05:29] «(@ Kaia )» ...not sure I like being grouped with them... *she offers a grin to show she is teasing* ...but what would make you say that?
[05:29] «( Ethan` )» "the ability to commune with your ancestors"
[05:30] «(@ Kaia )» Ahhh....that is not so pleasant.
[05:33] «( Ethan` )» "I suppose. Seriosuly always told me that...as a Boen Gnawers, my ancestors are every man who fought for his own freedom, or for anothers"
[05:33] «(@ Kaia )» Thank fully while I reflect my lineage the only voice that guests in my head belongs to my spirit companion. ...that is a rather good truth. Also an overlapping one.
[05:33] «( Ethan` )» "how so?"
[05:34] «(@ Kaia )» White Howlers fought for freedom of all... Fenrir are known for defending those of Gaia, even if we don't believe in what you say we'll defend your right to say it...
[05:36] * Ethan` nods
[05:36] «( Ethan` )» "and the Bone Gnawers have the outcasts and refugees from all tribes"
[05:39] *(@) Kaia chuckles softly, "I tend to say that of the Children of Gaia. They take the ones that need to be healed and cared for until they can fly again. To me the Bone Gnawers were the survivors. The ones that were resourceful and capable of adapting to any situation with an intrinsic sense of honor and loyalty that rivals the brotherhood the Fenrir enjoy."
[03:22] *(@) Kaia ... is still athletic. Spotting Ethan her tail wags in greeting before shifting up to homid.
[03:22] * Ethan` wags back and shifts upw ith her
[03:23] «( Ethan` )» "long time no see Kaia-Rhay, how are the kids?"
[03:24] *(@) Kaia is 5'4 with a lean slender frame in homid. Her skin is kissed a deep tan by the sun with hair that is a mix of blonde, greys, and browns that have been braided and formed into dread locks. What seems like a hundred tiny silver bells have been woven into her long hair accentuating her flowing movements with their soft sound. Her attire consists of a simple baby blue top the material...
[03:25] *(@) Kaia ... looped around her neck, crossing above her chest to travel over each breast before binding in the back. A grey and tan skirt complete her attire, feet bare as her toes relish the feel of the grass.
[03:25] «(@ Kaia )» Growing fast...and very curious. How have you been Ethan?
[03:26] «( Ethan` )» "win some you lose some. I'm learnign faster and faster. Had ym first run in wth a Silver Fang yesterday. she punched me in the gut"
[03:27] «(@ Kaia )» Sure that was a Silver Fang? ~*She looks to him curiously since the description led her to believe it was someone from her tribe*~
[03:27] «( Ethan` )» "she said she was a Silver Fang, and from the looks of her, I beleiv eit. A sort of...terrible, austere beauty, and an overpowerign sense of entitlement"
[03:29] «(@ Kaia )» Ahh...the ego before the fall. ~*She laughs softly and moves to take a seat, bells chiming softly as her body sways*~
[03:30] «( Ethan` )» "I...gave the Alpah chimiange for my earlie rinsult....a weapon I forged myself"
[03:31] * Ethan` smiles
[03:31] «( Ethan` )» "have you met charlie yet?"
[03:32] «(@ Kaia )» ...If you are referring to the other scent you carry with you almost all the time now....no not personally.
[03:32] * Ethan` chuckles
[03:33] «( Ethan` )» "he's another cub...scared shitless, but....smart as hell, he's....he's become my brother"
[03:35] «(@ Kaia )» I can tell...
[03:35] *(@) Kaia offers him a smile
[03:35] «(@ Kaia )» Thats good though Ethan. We all need a family
[03:36] «( Ethan` )» "He...he's so unsure himself...of his abilities, so i've been teaching him, using the parables that Seriosuly taught me"
[03:37] «( Ethan` )» "ehich is what we do as Galliards, isn;t it? teach, inspire....remember"
[03:46] *(@) Kaia nods, "It is. We're the ones that stir the warriors to battle, inspire them to fight for Gaia, sing songs to comfort loved ones, offer joyous songs of welcome to those newly born...it is a many faceted job that we do. "
[03:48] «( Ethan` )» "i'm enjoyign it. I've decided to....dedicate myself to recording part of our peoples hsitory
[03:48] «( Ethan` )» "a lifetimes work"
[03:51] «(@ Kaia )» A current historical document? Or looking into a specific part.
[03:54] «( Ethan` )» "My own grandfather fought in the Second World War, and I've learned that so many of our people did too, I want to preserve that, so future generations knwo of their sacrifice for not onyl the Nation, but for the humans and gaia"
[03:54] «( Ethan` )» "but i've been advised to avoid talking too much about it"
[03:56] *(@) Kaia expression stiffens for just a moment...an obvious sign of discomfort from one wolf to another...though a human might miss it entirely. "...there are reasons for that Ethan. But...I have spoken to a few of the ones that might be reluctant to speak of it, the Alpha included. Word sort of spread ahead of you...however I have been given permission by a few to speak for them to you if you so...
[03:56] «(@ Kaia )» "
[03:56] *(@) Kaia ... wish.
[03:58] «( Ethan` )» "I know..."
[03:59] «(@ Kaia )» ...just respect that I will answer -any- question asked truthfully. Its the nature of what I do within our auspice.
[03:59] «( Ethan` )» "tell me about the Alpha, she....radiates incredible strength, but...she's so guarded"
[04:01] «(@ Kaia )» Ahhhh. Yes. That one. The Iron Judge is rather well known in the Black Forest Sept. Would you believe me if I told you that she had a rockier cubhood then you?
[04:02] * Ethan` laughs out loud
[04:02] «( Ethan` )» "Is that truly possible?"
[04:02] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan Nailo, Steel Judge (typoed the last few times), did not actually make her Rite of Passage until she was almost 19. She refused to go through it the first time likening the whole system to be an archaic instituition brought on by generations of backward thinking.
[04:03] * Ethan` laughs
[04:03] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan was...an interesting case. You've heard of delayed Changes?
[04:04] * Ethan` nods
[04:04] «( Ethan` )» "Seriously said I was a delayed change"
[04:05] «(@ Kaia )» Most occur around puberty, when the body is already going through a state of flux. Contrary to popular belief most changes are not at all violent or traumatic. Those in Septs can be downright mild due to the understanding nature of those around them and numerous elders to temper the initial Rage.
[04:06] «( Ethan` )» "not like mine and charlie's?"
[04:06] «(@ Kaia )» Sometimes this can be triggered earlier by high stress situations. Some are delayed until late teens. A rare few of the delayed ones however also show no signs of ever being a shifter.
[04:06] *(@) Kaia nods, "Yes. It can occur in a non violent fashion."
[04:06] «(@ Kaia )» ...I fell off a cliff.
[04:10] «(@ Kaia )» Deunan on the other hand...to what everyone knew and thought was to never shift. She was the middle child with an older brother claiming a place among the Garou as an Ahroun and a younger Silver Tongue brother. Most families would consider themselves blessed. You have seen the scars on the Alpha's back and legs? ....those were done by the Hammer, her father. Her brother's first change was brought on by beating the...
[04:10] «(@ Kaia )» ... crap out of their father with his own hammer and defense of Deunan. Yes....even at ten she was still the indomitable wall she is now. She'd set an opinion and never waiver.
[04:21] «( Ethan` )» "sounds About right"
*(@) Kaia leans forward her thick german accent soft though her tone and pacing is rhythmic almost mesmerizing. She nods, "The Alpha looks nothing like her father...not a one of them did. Something no one ever questioned since their purebreeding followed Helga's line...and not the Hammer's. If you ever saw a picture...you would be startled by the resemblence. Helga's line are heroic, Ethan. One of...
[04:27] *(@) Kaia ... the hallmarks of the bloodline was aiding in eliminating our little embarrassment during World War 2."
[04:29] «( Ethan` )» "I see"
[04:31] «(@ Kaia )» The Fenrir Elders had an idea Ethan. They weren't the only ones. That instead of just executing every last one, since many were of old honorable lines....it would be best to just breed them out. Using the pure lines to filter out the poor. So I'm sure you can guess what the Hammer's side of the family was busy doing..."
[04:31] *(@) Kaia looks at him levely observing his expression as she speaks
[04:32] «( Ethan` )» "rounding up my grandmother's people and thier like and putting them in camps"
[04:32] *(@) Kaia blanches, "Close. Up the intensity."
[04:33] «( Ethan` )» "Gramps.......told me about the camps Kaia.....I have an idea about the horrors perpetrated there"
[04:35] «(@ Kaia )» It is one thing to be the men herding the sheep. But what of the ones that create the little shops of horror in the first place....that didn't just use the camps for their 'projects'. Everyone sees the leaders...the officers....the soldiers forced to do the bidding. The soldiers....the officers many could be excused...eventually. Though by the end the ones that had been forced into to save their families had long...
[04:35] «(@ Kaia )» ... since perished once they saw their loved ones brought in.
[04:35] *(@) Kaia voice grows softer as she speaks, for once seeming to carefully choose her words and phrasings.
[04:36] «( Ethan` )» "and the ones who remained were the ones who....took...pride in their perverse work, took pleasure in it"
[04:37] «(@ Kaia )» Yes. The ones that had waited for the chance to do what they enjoyed most...and in the name of one that would never condone it. If you are unlucky might run into him, his location has been unknown for some time. There is a serious concern that uncontrollable Rage runs in the family and that this tendency for uncontrollable violence has shown in Deunan...has been documented.
[04:38] «( Ethan` )» 'Hence why she's so guarded. She's fighting that tendency within herself"
[04:39] «(@ Kaia )» ...I personally do not believe it is founded. There are a few things I know about her that lead me to believe something else entirely.
[04:40] «( Ethan` )» "I haven't interacted with her much, but...but the loyalty she inspires in her subordinastes leads me to beleive she's.....that she represents the noble spirit of the tribe"
[04:41] «(@ Kaia )» I've seen her reign in her rage, justfied rage at that, to the extent where she has had seizures. Ever wonder why she is in America and not Germany?
[04:42] «( Ethan` )» "she had to get away from where the reminders of her families sins were omnipresent"
[04:44] «(@ Kaia )» Actually up until the incident with Nicholas, life there was pleasant. Once Devon had chased away the Hammer things were quiet. Her change was brought on by an apparently abusive boyfriend, who they never found, but even after that things were fairly normal for a Sept.
[04:49] «( Ethan` )» "so what brought her here?"
] «(@ Kaia )» ...inspite of being a burr in the ass to the elders while a cub she transitioned well enough for an older Garou. It did however open her to the possibility of having a relationship with a childhood friend. A few weeks before the wedding Rheanna, a mutal friend of theirs, tried to push Nicholas to choose her instead. Rumor, mind all I have are the spirits words for this part, is that the full moon and already...
[04:50] «(@ Kaia )» ... heightened air of energy did little to soften the rejection he gave her. Whether he provoked her or not is unknown but since Nicholas was soft hearted it is unlikely. ...she killed him. Deunan came home to find her over his body. We know she told Deunan that she had waited so she could tell Deunan what had happened. ....I'm the one that found Deunan and the remains outside her home. There was very little left...she had destroyed her hands punching the bones over and over again....which is why she carries the scars on her knuckles a...
[04:50] «(@ Kaia )» ... destroyed her hands punching the bones over and over again....which is why she carries the scars on her knuckles a
[04:51] «(@ Kaia )» and fingers. We know it was Rheanna only because of Deunans statement and the spirits....DNA testing wasn't all that popular just yet. Though she was justified in what she did it was determined it best that she leave and join her brothers in New Orleans.
[04:51] «( Ethan` )» "Deunan-rhya killed her friend?"
[04:53] «(@ Kaia )» ...yes. ~*Kaia swallows thickly and looks down the soft hearted wolf born finding the recollection more emotional then she remembered. Her grey eyes well up with tears but she licks her lips and continues speaking.*~ ...I never thought a wolf...even in Crinos...could make a sound that heart wrenching.
[04:53] * Ethan` shudders
[04:53] «(@ Kaia )» Those three were inseperable growing up. They used to play with me when I was little.
[04:54] «( Ethan` )» "I can;'t imagien the pain"
[04:54] «(@ Kaia )» ....No...I couldn't imagine what it would be like to lose every mate that I had had.... I am very glad that she has Terrance. ~*She nods, almost to herself the bells in her hair chiming sadly*~
[04:56] «( Ethan` )» "I thought I knew about loss...."
[04:56] * Ethan` smiles
[04:56] «( Ethan` )» "She's not the onyl one his presence has been good for"
[04:57] «( Ethan` )» "i'd...i'd be dancign the spiral now if not for him"
[04:57] * Ethan` shudders
[04:57] *(@) Kaia smiles back to him. "You should talk to to her sometime...after she's had her baby. I used to be intimidated by her a long time ago but she's a damned good one to have in your corner when it counts. ...I am glad that you are here Ethan. Though I do not think you'd have gone that path. There is something too noble in your heart."
[04:58] * Ethan` blushes
[04:58] «(@ Kaia )» (far too*)
[04:59] «(@ Kaia )» Its true Ethan. At the worst you would have been one of the nameless fallen in the name of Gaia...but never a Dancer.
[04:59] «( Ethan` )» "Seriously says I have too much of my grandfather in me"
[04:59] «(@ Kaia )» Yes, I can see that.
[05:00] «( Ethan` )» "I wish I had KNOWN he was Garou before he died, I wish he had TOLD me what to expect"
«(@ Kaia )» Don't hate him for it Ethan. Im sure he regrets it enough. Though if he thought you needed the preparation Im sure he would have told you. Look at it as a way of knowing just how much he knew you would adapt and learn, how truly strong you are.
[05:01] * Ethan` nods
[05:02] «( Ethan` )» "I don;t hate him, I coudl never hate him. His stories, his memories are what set me on this path"
[05:04] «(@ Kaia )» Your words, tone, body language, can all show different messages Ethan. Frustration or anger can be taken many ways.
[05:04] «( Ethan` )» "Is my anger and frustration showing?"
[05:04] * Quits: Charlie` (Chance@3424290b.stny.res.14056255.com.hmsk) (Ping timeout: 265 seconds)
[05:06] *(@) Kaia nods slowly, "For one accustomed to reading the body and not the spoken word, yes."
[05:08] «( Ethan` )» "i'm still seetihn over Neo's judgement against the Fang who punched me. she got off scott free"
[05:09] «(@ Kaia )» For now maybe.
[05:10] «( Ethan` )» "yeah, for now. She has to apologize after I make my rite, but no one knows when that'll be"
[05:11] * Ethan` sighs
[05:11] «( Ethan` )» "if I had punched someone, i'd be branded with silver or some shit"
[05:12] «(@ Kaia )» I doubt it would go that far. I've noticed a fondness for area beautification projects.
[05:13] «( Ethan` )» "I've picked up more bear shit...."
[05:13] * Ethan` rolls his eyes
[05:13] *(@) Kaia grins, "Better then branding."
[05:13] * Ethan` sighs
[05:13] «( Ethan` )» "can I speak candidly? without judgement?"
[05:14] «(@ Kaia )» Go right ahead Ethan. This is a discussion between us.
[05:14] «( Ethan` )» "I don;t feel like people have REALLY appreciated how much i've tried to do and learn"
[05:15] «(@ Kaia )» Ethan. I'm going to give you an example...and I want you to listen okay?
[05:15] * Ethan` nods and lsitens
[05:17] «(@ Kaia )» We have seen you try very hard. We have also seen you get angry and violent at the slightest insult or pull a juvenile prank most times resulting in you sulking off into the woods like an emo-teenager.
[05:17] *(@) Kaia holds up a finger, "Before you get angry be quiet and just remember what you feel right this second. I will give you five seconds...and then I am going to say something else."
[05:18] *(@) Kaia looks to him for when he's ready
[05:18] * Ethan` takes a deep breath and nods
«(@ Kaia )» I have seen you diligently guard my den above and beyond what you were told. When you have a mind to you do very well. But when things do not go according to what you wish you have trouble adjusting which can lead to some issues and displays that look less then favorably on you. You have shown remarkable improvement since your arrival Ethan and inspite of trials and errors have put one foot in front of the other...
[05:21] «(@ Kaia )» ... diligently, even when its yourself standing in your way. I admire your strength.
[05:21] *(@) Kaia peers to him and asks softly, "...essentially the same message. ....but which were you more receptive to?" She watches him curiously
[05:22] «( Ethan` )» "the latter"
[05:22] «(@ Kaia )» ...why?
[05:22] «( Ethan` )» "the tone and the wording...the presentation"
[05:23] * Ethan` chuckles
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» You were also left with a postive impression weren't you?
[05:23] * Ethan` nods
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» Now consider a moment, from an outsiders perspective, the impressions you are -leaving- behind you.
[05:23] «(@ Kaia )» What have been your final statements.
[05:24] * Ethan` sighs
[05:24] «( Ethan` )» "less then flattering"
[05:24] *(@) Kaia smiles, "We're really good at getting in our own way."
[05:24] * Ethan` chuckles
[05:25] «(@ Kaia )» Its even worse when we're wanting something really badly.
[05:25] «( Ethan` )» "is it the wolf inus, or the man?"
[05:25] *(@) Kaia huffs indignantly. "The man. Filthy human." She sticks her tongue out at him and grins
[05:26] «( Ethan` )» "but I know the secret....of why Gaia made us part man and part wolf"
[05:26] «(@ Kaia )» Oh?
[05:27] *(@) Kaia watches him, curiosity dancing in her silvery grey eyes
[05:27] «( Ethan` )» "think about it. Humans can exist alone, but were better when organized in clans, tribes, platoons or armies"
[05:27] «( Ethan` )» "Wolves can exist alone, but onyl in a pack do they truyl become apex predators"
[05:27] «(@ Kaia )» They can exist alone, they tell themselves that, but seperate one from the herd for too long and they go mad. Much is the same with wolves...but more extreme. The lone wolf is a dead wolf.
[05:28] * Ethan` nods
[05:28] «(@ Kaia )» We are Gaia's warriors....she gave us a blessing and a curse. Even when we walk alone...our dual nature prevents us from ever truly being solitary.
[05:28] «( Ethan` )» "Sometimes I envy your tribe and Silver Fangs"
[05:29] *(@) Kaia gives him a surprised blink
[05:29] «(@ Kaia )» ...not sure I like being grouped with them... *she offers a grin to show she is teasing* ...but what would make you say that?
[05:29] «( Ethan` )» "the ability to commune with your ancestors"
[05:30] «(@ Kaia )» Ahhh....that is not so pleasant.
[05:33] «( Ethan` )» "I suppose. Seriosuly always told me that...as a Boen Gnawers, my ancestors are every man who fought for his own freedom, or for anothers"
[05:33] «(@ Kaia )» Thank fully while I reflect my lineage the only voice that guests in my head belongs to my spirit companion. ...that is a rather good truth. Also an overlapping one.
[05:33] «( Ethan` )» "how so?"
[05:34] «(@ Kaia )» White Howlers fought for freedom of all... Fenrir are known for defending those of Gaia, even if we don't believe in what you say we'll defend your right to say it...
[05:36] * Ethan` nods
[05:36] «( Ethan` )» "and the Bone Gnawers have the outcasts and refugees from all tribes"
[05:39] *(@) Kaia chuckles softly, "I tend to say that of the Children of Gaia. They take the ones that need to be healed and cared for until they can fly again. To me the Bone Gnawers were the survivors. The ones that were resourceful and capable of adapting to any situation with an intrinsic sense of honor and loyalty that rivals the brotherhood the Fenrir enjoy."